[RozoN]
Feb-08-09, 03:02 PM
Well it was mostly inspired by Khaos' "quitters" thread. I've started writing a post and then it got big and out of control and I decided that I'd rather make a thread about it. I've never really expressed how I feel about tricking and what it means to me, either, so that's what this post is about. :smile:. This has been done a million times before, it's just my version of it, sort of...
This basically explains why I can't quit tricking. Feel free to post your opinions on it, share your views or experiences or just let the thread die out :tongue:. I'm warning you, the post is very cliche and I'm not a good text writer, so this will most likely be a bore to read haha. But still, if it somehow helps at least one person, if it inspires or makes him realize something, the post was worth making :smile:
I considered quitting tricking several times for different reasons. Before, it was the lack of time, lack of motivation, lack of proper equipment etc, but I always came back for some reason and I always wondered why.
Last time I considered my tricking career to be over, was because of an injury. During that period I was quite restless and it made me realize an important point. I couldn't sleep or think of anything else besides tricking. I didn't want to do anything else but trick, so I returned to tricking not fully recovered.
And suddenly, just like that, out of nowhere it came to me why I never really liked my part time jobs, didn't do better at school, tricked injured, didn't bother with what you would call "growing up" or didn't have that "survival instinct" I saw in everyone's eyes - it stood in the way of my tricking, and I didn't valued tricking more then anything else - tricking is what I wanted to do in my life.
Was it stupid of me to quit my part time job? Was it stupid of me to only do half an effort in school? Was it wrong of me to return to tricking half recovered? Is it wrong of me to not "get a life"? HELL YEAH IT IS! But what can I do?
Each time I stop tricking, I loose my life lust and I loose my direction and concentration. A lot of the reasons for things I do today lie in tricking. Stretching, lifting, trying to keep up friendships, read and educate myself are all motivated in one way or another by tricking.
Some people might find it ridiculous, stupid, obsessive or pathetic. Some people might look at my life and say that I don't have much in my life besides tricking, and that there's not much to value in it. They are probably right... What they might not realize, though, is that I had even less before I started tricking. Before tricking, I was a total wreck of a human being. After I started tricking I learned so much and I saw myself becoming a better person.
You might be a total looser in your life, but for that split second when you realize you landed a new trick or a combo, everything disappears, and you feel indestructible. In that split second you're certain that there's no limits to what a human body can do.
I had quite a lot of different hobbies before tricking. But I never could relate to them, I never wanted to return to them day after day, I never felt that buzz you get when you land a new trick - I felt nothing. I could be the one of the best at what I do and I never felt a slight sign of happiness or accomplishment. Most importantly I never felt I was welcome and never felt the same comradery, that I feel in the tricking community.
When I discovered tricking I fanatically spent hours and days on learning terminology, looking at tutorials and samplers, thinking about the correct technique and new combos. I've never experienced such obsession before in my life. It taught me to commitment and dedication.
I realize perfectly that nothing lasts forever and especially not tricking. I know perfectly that sooner or later I will have to quit tricking, get a job and eventually get a family and a dog :tongue:. In two months I'm leaving for the air force, where I will spend a whole year, at least. After that, I'm stuff insure whether I'll stay in the air force or move somewhere to take my bachelor in zoology or biology. I know perfectly that tricking will have to take a back seat for these things. I only hope I will have strength to put tricking on the second place, but I don't wish to put it behind me.
I'm rambling on a bit now, but what I'm trying to say is that I couldn't quit tricking, even if I tried. When I'm in that gym with my team mates or at a gathering, I wish for it to never end. And when it does, feel like I didn't get enough of it. The post got pretty sobby and cliche, I guess, but I feel good putting it down, no matter if there's anyone else who feels the same or not.
This basically explains why I can't quit tricking. Feel free to post your opinions on it, share your views or experiences or just let the thread die out :tongue:. I'm warning you, the post is very cliche and I'm not a good text writer, so this will most likely be a bore to read haha. But still, if it somehow helps at least one person, if it inspires or makes him realize something, the post was worth making :smile:
I considered quitting tricking several times for different reasons. Before, it was the lack of time, lack of motivation, lack of proper equipment etc, but I always came back for some reason and I always wondered why.
Last time I considered my tricking career to be over, was because of an injury. During that period I was quite restless and it made me realize an important point. I couldn't sleep or think of anything else besides tricking. I didn't want to do anything else but trick, so I returned to tricking not fully recovered.
And suddenly, just like that, out of nowhere it came to me why I never really liked my part time jobs, didn't do better at school, tricked injured, didn't bother with what you would call "growing up" or didn't have that "survival instinct" I saw in everyone's eyes - it stood in the way of my tricking, and I didn't valued tricking more then anything else - tricking is what I wanted to do in my life.
Was it stupid of me to quit my part time job? Was it stupid of me to only do half an effort in school? Was it wrong of me to return to tricking half recovered? Is it wrong of me to not "get a life"? HELL YEAH IT IS! But what can I do?
Each time I stop tricking, I loose my life lust and I loose my direction and concentration. A lot of the reasons for things I do today lie in tricking. Stretching, lifting, trying to keep up friendships, read and educate myself are all motivated in one way or another by tricking.
Some people might find it ridiculous, stupid, obsessive or pathetic. Some people might look at my life and say that I don't have much in my life besides tricking, and that there's not much to value in it. They are probably right... What they might not realize, though, is that I had even less before I started tricking. Before tricking, I was a total wreck of a human being. After I started tricking I learned so much and I saw myself becoming a better person.
You might be a total looser in your life, but for that split second when you realize you landed a new trick or a combo, everything disappears, and you feel indestructible. In that split second you're certain that there's no limits to what a human body can do.
I had quite a lot of different hobbies before tricking. But I never could relate to them, I never wanted to return to them day after day, I never felt that buzz you get when you land a new trick - I felt nothing. I could be the one of the best at what I do and I never felt a slight sign of happiness or accomplishment. Most importantly I never felt I was welcome and never felt the same comradery, that I feel in the tricking community.
When I discovered tricking I fanatically spent hours and days on learning terminology, looking at tutorials and samplers, thinking about the correct technique and new combos. I've never experienced such obsession before in my life. It taught me to commitment and dedication.
I realize perfectly that nothing lasts forever and especially not tricking. I know perfectly that sooner or later I will have to quit tricking, get a job and eventually get a family and a dog :tongue:. In two months I'm leaving for the air force, where I will spend a whole year, at least. After that, I'm stuff insure whether I'll stay in the air force or move somewhere to take my bachelor in zoology or biology. I know perfectly that tricking will have to take a back seat for these things. I only hope I will have strength to put tricking on the second place, but I don't wish to put it behind me.
I'm rambling on a bit now, but what I'm trying to say is that I couldn't quit tricking, even if I tried. When I'm in that gym with my team mates or at a gathering, I wish for it to never end. And when it does, feel like I didn't get enough of it. The post got pretty sobby and cliche, I guess, but I feel good putting it down, no matter if there's anyone else who feels the same or not.